林綠出生的記憶小碎片之二 - 2025.2.23

1、2024/8/31-2024/9/3 總共在醫院待了 4 天 3 夜。中途會回家洗澡跟整理家裡，這段期間我是睡在病床旁邊的躺椅。因為嘉詩這次不擠奶，所以住院期間就是全力養好傷口，我則是全力幫助她養傷口。我盡量不幫忙吃月子餐，林紫出生的時候我幫忙吃月子餐胖了好多。9/1 林紫和外婆來看林綠，留下姊弟人生第一張合照。

2、2024/9/3-2024/9/22 嘉詩待在月子中心。因為希望林紫儘早回歸正常作息並回學校上課，所以平日都是放學之後我會把她從學校接去月中，再從月中回家睡覺，我不會在月中過夜，但是平日不用進辦公室的時候，會去月中陪嘉詩，林紫則是週末會在月中過夜。這其實是我相當魔幻的 20 天，因為規定年紀大的孩子不可以跟寶寶同室，但我大多時候都是跟林紫一起拜訪，所以這 20 天，我實際只有接觸林綠本人大概 2 次，其他時候就是一直透過玻璃跟螢幕看他。

3、一件跟林綠無關的事情。我一直都很想要在家裡打造雙語環境，但是我一直沒有鼓起勇氣要求林紫只能跟我說英文，我也經常不想花時間學習我也不會的英文生活用語。但是在林綠跟我老婆住在月中的期間，我實在懶得跟林紫扯一些不重要的事情，我就開始假裝是一個聽不懂中文的人。而我女兒所有要求除非她用英文提出，不然一概不會接受。她就是從這個時期開始願意開口說一些， “I want more chicken.” 或是 “I want to watch Sesame Street.“，我就發現原來她完全做得到，從這一刻起我家才真的是雙語環境。

4、今年中秋節嘉詩剛好會在月中度過，由於她是非常愛吃烤肉跟燒肉的人，我非常心疼她必須在月子中心度過這個烤肉佳節。所以早早就計畫好要買好吃的燒肉便當跟她一起在月子中心度過中秋節，我最後買的是「燒肉中山」在 BELLAVITA 開的「四行倉庫FOUR FOOD DEPOT」。總之是十分推薦，如果你本身或是有個愛吃燒肉的另一半，但你們不克前往燒肉店或是沒有任何座位，買這個準沒有錯。

5、2024/9/17 某一個應該是請了陪產假的平日，因為跟嘉詩約定了約會日，所以在約會中逛了百貨公司，剛好看到一間滿好看的全黑的同時非常具有機能性的裙子，雖然有點貴，但沒有考慮很久就買了。我一直很想買一件裙子，因為我經常跟我女兒說男生也可以穿裙子，可是林紫總是覺得，我從來沒看過男生穿裙子。我不能當那種光說不練的爸爸，所以我必須穿上裙子。無論如何，性別刻板印象必須完全根除在我兩個孩子的心中。

6、2024/9/20 跟老婆請假，跟昆宏、晨瀚，還有小潘去吃 Black Pepper，我們吃的非常滿意，但我一下子也不知道怎麼介紹這個店，總之就是義大利料理，店裡的內場有幾個帥到你完全不會在意他們是不是義大利人的外國人，以及非常道地的設備。你絕對會在這個店裡得到很棒的體驗。結束之後依循 Black Pepper 店員的建議，走到 XIXI TAIPEI シーシータイペイ 續攤。這是一個日式精釀酒吧，由於我不是精釀愛好者，實在評論不出什麼，但由於店員跟老闆都是日本人，如果你想找一些道地的酒盜跟日本家常料理，這裡可以獲得解答。（這是什麼異國料理日嗎？）

7、2024/9/28 我爸媽來看林綠。其實本來我爸媽想在林綠跟嘉詩在月中的時候北上拜訪，但是被我極力拒絕。我後來回想起來，有點後悔我在電話中拒絕我爸的時候語氣有點差，我想我當時可能是因為精神跟身體太疲憊了，導致心情跟口氣被影響。但我完全不後悔讓我爸媽在林綠回家之後才來拜訪，因為這樣他們才可以真正的跟孫子肌膚接觸跟抱抱林綠。

8、2024/10/26 Halloween。我一直都不太能投入萬聖節，但是讓孩子在萬聖節玩得開心，當然沒有問題。林綠扮成一個南瓜，林紫扮成小仙女。（實際上她的衣服是 Rapunzel，額外增添一副翅膀）

9、2024/11/15 一直到這天，才把彌月禮送完，去了一些有開店的朋友的店，拜訪了一些血緣深厚但是平時沒有太多聯絡的親戚，聽了一些不知道但有點有趣的八卦。無論如何，都只是想分享這份喜悅，並把這個福氣傳遞下去。

10、2024/11/30-2024/12/1 林綠第一次家族旅行，跟著嘉詩一家族來到宜蘭。我跟嘉詩都是大家族，所以林綠和林紫註定會在成長階段面對一堆名字可能記不太住的親戚。他們可能會是大型家族的終端，因為出生率持續下降，維繫大家族的長輩陸續過世，會降低家族的凝結力。無論如何，我希望林紫和林綠可以明白，有一堆可以學習的對象，可以尋求幫忙的長輩，不因為你花了多少時間跟他相處，只因為共享著相同的血脈和姓氏。 

我是無神論者，但我尊重你的信仰 2025.2.9

很多親近的朋友和同事，以及家人都知道，我是一個無神論者。我是一個無神論者，曾經我很喜歡跟別人說我是一個不可知論者。不可知論或者是不可知主義，意思就是對於無法證明其存在的事物，不否認其存在但是不知道是否真的存在。我明明就完全不相信神的存在，卻要跟別人說我是不可知論者有兩個原因。第一，我不想要被非常迷信或是有強烈信仰的人覺得我很傲慢。第二，向別人解釋不可知論是什麼意思，會顯得自己懂很多，好像很有學問一樣。

這一兩年，可能是年紀增長同時也更敢表達自己觀點的原因，我已經不再說自己是不可知論者。我很清楚我完全不相信神的存在，我也不曾寄託過神明和宗教。這樣的我，刻意定義自己是不可知論者的話，我覺得非常虛偽。我之所以不迷信也不相信世界有神，很單純只是我的原生家庭沒有這種習慣，另外我的教育背景和同儕影響，也使我走向比較不會將自己寄託給宗教的人格，可以說是有一半環境所致，另外一半是個人選擇。

我是一個無神論者，但是我非常尊重民俗信仰，我不會戰宗教。（但是會在最熟悉的朋友圈裡面開宗教玩笑）雖然不喜歡，但我也不排斥拜拜燒金紙。我很清楚，拜拜、祭祖、安太歲、開工拜拜、拜地基主，或是拜媽祖，這些都是台灣文化的一部分，伴隨著這種文化，我們和家人更親近，我們和同事或是住在同個鄉鎮的朋友更團結。因為台灣是一個自由的國度，我們才可以自由地崇拜神明和選擇信仰。這整件事情讓我覺得很可貴，也認為應該要保留其中善與美。

很高機率，我的兩個小孩也會長成跟我類似的心態。希望他們都可以把人生寄託給自己健全的人格，但同時也尊重包容不一樣的人。最後我想說，像我這種人，身旁有人在討論算命、人類圖、寵物溝通或是養一隻金色的雞每天要幫它換米跟換水的時候。一定會有人說，「林軒一定覺得你們又在怪力亂神了啦！」。對沒錯！我內心正是這麼想的沒錯，完全被你說中了，一點都否認不了。但是我尊重大家，也理解你們這麼做的原因喔！愛您們。 

Building True Gender Equality: The Role of Early Education and Mutual Respect 2025.1.15

Nowadays, there is ongoing discussion in Korea about maintaining gender-specific institutions. However, I think if any society wants to establish true gender equality, the most important moment is in early education. Inputting the core values of gender equality in children at a young age creates a foundation for a future generation. Also, I think different genders can focus on different spheres of this issue.

As a man, if you want to establish gender equality in boys’ hearts, it is essential to teach them that males are protectors, not hunters. In today’s society, males don’t have to hunt to survive and support families. However, being naturally stronger than females makes males natural protectors. Males can protect their wives, mothers, other women, and themselves. Moreover, men should strive to earn women’s trust by not taking advantage of them and by respecting them. 

As a woman, you can encourage young girls that they can achieve anything they aspire to, regardless of their gender. The fact that men historically dominated many areas and influenced women in the past doesn’t mean women can’t take on specific roles today. Women need to have confidence in themselves first, and it is a crucial step toward true equality in the future. Additionally, women should respect diverse men and seek mutual support rather than opposing every male viewpoint or increasing unnecessary conflicts.

No matter what the strategies are, I think both genders should respect each other and understand the natural differences between them. True gender equality will be achieved in a healthy way someday in the future.

林軒's Favorite Songs of 2024

Light & Salt - 오래된 친구

Joey Valence & Brae - DANCE NOW

桃子A1J, 王水源, 水蜜桃偵探社 - 尋人

Doja Cat - Paint The Town Red

B. Bravo - Atomic Bounce

JOYCE 就以斯、楊子平CAsPER - 都是weather你

ARTAN - She's A 10 But...

Rapsody - 3:AM ft. Erykah Badu

FRαNKIE阿法 - What a Time… ft. ABAO阿爆 （阿仍仍）, LEO37

AAA - Young Man

moumoon – Sunshine Girl

Funkadelic - Ain't That Funkin' Kinda Hard on You? (Remix) ft. Kendrick Lamar, Ice Cube

溫嵐 - 同手同腳

Ice Cube - So Sensitive

Lonnie Liston Smith - A Garden Of Peace

Terrace Martin Presents The Pollyseeds - Intentions

林軒與他的家人和好朋友們 - 林綠的 Gender Reveal Song

Why Not Seeing the Ad is Normal 2024.11.19

In a scenario where there are 20 million users and an advertisement campaign generates 5 million impressions, each user can see the ad at most once. If we randomly select four people, what are the chances that none of them sees the ad? This probability can be calculated using the hypergeometric distribution, which considers the total population, the number of exposed users, and the sample size.

After computation, the probability that none of the four people sees the ad is approximately 31.64%, while the probability of exactly one person seeing the ad is about 42.19%. The difference between these probabilities isn’t as large as you might expect, right? This highlights an important point: it is quite common for a small group to have no exposure to the ad, even when the campaign reaches millions of users.

The reason is straightforward: with 20 million users and only 5 million exposures, the campaign’s reach is limited relative to the total population. For any given individual, the chance of seeing the ad is just 25% (5 million divided by 20 million). When selecting four people randomly, it’s more likely that not all of them belong to the exposed group.

In marketing campaigns like this, it is crucial to understand the statistical nature of exposure. A significant portion of users might not see the ad due to the limited number of impressions relative to the audience size. This does not indicate a failure in the campaign but rather reflects the mathematical reality of impression distribution.

If you need a specific person to see the advertisement, you might want to use fixed placement strategies. For example, purchasing a time slot for a fixed ad position on a particular website or application ensures that the ad is visible during the exposure period. This strategy allows you to ensure that your supervisor or higher manager can see the ad you’ve purchased. Incorporating such an approach into your media strategy can be effective in special situations where targeted exposure is critical. 

A Life-Changing Saturday: The Day Our Family Grew 2024.10.10

On the morning of August 31st, 2024, a Saturday that is very different from the rest of the Saturdays of the year. Every Saturday morning, I had to attend an English class online. As usual, we did a little overtime to discuss the last question of the weekly topic. Suddenly, my daughter broke our discussion and yelled at me, “Dad! Mommy is bleeding a lot!” and I heard my wife yell from another corner of my house, “I am OK, so far!“ I finished the discussion as quickly as I could and then asked my wife. “How do you feel? Do you think it will happen TODAY?“ She said.”I am not sure, but if my pain becomes regular and more painful, we have to go to the hospital.” 

After having brunch and taking a nap, we went to the hospital. I actually seldom take a nap on Saturday afternoon, but my instinct told me TODAY would be my son’s birthday which means it would be a long day and there would be lots of tasks to do, that’s why I took a nap to make sure I could have enough energy to face the challenge later. After arriving at the hospital, my wife called her mom and asked her to pick up our daughter and take her home. We knew our daughter was excited, but she was not be able to help at that moment.

Since my wife’s pain became more intense and that was around 17:00, the doctor said ”We can go to the delivery room now. Please let the husband sign some documents for staying in the hospital” I signed the documents and waited for them to call me to go into the delivery room. Waiting outside of the delivery room was the most difficult time of the whole process because I couldn’t see my wife at the moment, but still could hear her screaming. Time seemed to stop and my anxiety was 100% full. 10 minutes later, the door opened, and the nurse said “you can come in now.” I walked in and I witnessed the process of my son being born from his mom’s body. Fortunately, my wife and my son were both fine in the process and finally I could hold my wife’s hand and cheer her up. 

Now, I am a father of two kids. My wife’s recovery is going very well. After two delivery processes, I believe my wife has a superpower, the power of being a mother is incredible. I hope my daughter can grow up to be like her mom and have that kind of power even if she doesn’t want to be a mom, and my son can grow up to be a gentleman who respects women because he was born from such a painful process by his Mom.

林綠出生的記憶小碎片 2024.9.29

1. 2024/8/30 找我老婆中午一起吃午餐，因為要恭喜她下週一開始的待產假，終於可以好好休息了。我跟我老婆在同一棟大樓的不同樓層的不同公司上班。我們挑選了12：30出發用餐，結果這時間每個餐廳都客滿，我們最後去吃肯德基。

2. 每週六早上我都會在家上英文課，最後一個月孕婦每週都要產檢。因為家裡離醫院很近，我老婆都騎機車載我女兒一起去，第一胎的時候絕對不敢讓這件事情發生，第二胎倒也不是隨便，可能就是少了一點戰戰兢兢。

3. 2024/8/31 快要下課的時候我女兒衝了進我書房，因為她每個禮拜都會衝進我的書房，第一時間也不覺得有什麼異樣，但是這次她衝進來說，「爸爸！媽媽流了好多月經！」但我老婆在外面喊說，「沒關係啦～」。跟老師完成最後的討論後，出門趕快關心老婆。

4. 確認老婆沒事之後，我老婆在客廳吃她回家路上買的蛋餅，我就在房間跟我女兒玩。玩一玩，我就跟我女兒說，「你去跟媽媽說，爸爸想要睡一下，如果要去醫院的話再叫爸爸起床。」嘴巴是這樣講，我心裡想的其實是，應該就是今天了，照這時間點應該今天還有得忙，我可得趕快補充一點體力。不知道是上一次的經驗還是靈感，但當時就非常肯定今天會生，不過我當下沒特別跟我老婆說就是了。

5. 大概一點出頭，我老婆叫我起床，我們整理了一下行李，我還挑選了一頂比較百搭的 Carhartt 帽子，因為我想說這一出門，下次回家就是林綠出生之後了，我可能不能很沒有風格的迎接他的到來。我老婆則是很細心的分開打包了生產包跟住院包。這樣就不用一次扛超多物品到診間，真是縝密。最後我們抵達醫院的時間是 13:10。

6. 隨著一波又一波的陣痛，我跟我老婆都非常確信今天就會生產。中間還遇到護理師跟值班醫師想退貨，但是都被我老婆說服了。我老婆認真想說服別人的時候真的很強，堅定的語氣搭配誠實的面孔。

7. 大約在17：00附近進入生產間，我也有進去，但護理師跟醫生忘記詢問我要不要剪臍帶，所以這次我沒有剪臍帶。不過沒關係，老實說，剪臍帶很無聊，如果可以的話，我想試試看接生，我看兩次了，我覺得我應該可以。

8. 林綠在 17：19 出生。這傢伙不知道是天生帥哥病還是怎樣，衝出產道的姿勢跟氣勢真的頗帥，有一種 superhero landing 的感覺。

9. 比預期早了一些，不過是個非常完整的嬰兒。2,830g，頭圍32cm，身長43cm。十根腳趾，十根手指，兩個眼睛，兩個耳朵，一個嘴，一個或兩個斷掌。好樣的，你爸爸也是一個斷掌。

10. 在嬰兒誕生完的好一段時間，嬰兒到底怎樣，我其實沒有很有所謂，對我來說，我老婆的一切才是最重要的。對我來說，我老婆就是我的一切，也是在這段過程中最在乎的人。